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Post by Caitlyn Fey on Jan 4, 2019 4:22:25 GMT
"Everybody deserves a life. That's what...that's what we're all fighting for." Caitlyn said.
"Love...it's complicated. I get that. It hurts. That's part of why I like to keep things light, casual. Less likely to hurt someone that way." Caitlyn said. And she thought about the past. About a bunch of teenagers that thought they could change the world. And who they ended up becoming. Would those teens have liked what they grew up into?
She didn't realize she was digging her fingernails into her palm until she had almost drawn blood. She let go and pushed that into the back of her mind. Those days...they didn't matter anymore. She just needed to make the future better.
"A-anything can happen with love. Don't be so quick to assume that you know how things are going to go. My husband...I didn't think that he would accept me either. But he did...entirely. It was...breathtaking. I think he was...the only man I ever loved...romantically." Caitlyn said. Gods damn it. Middle of a cafe and she almost had broken down in tears. She had to shake it off. Change the topic.
"Please. She's a beauty. I know you can see that. Now tell me what's your type of woman. More like her all cutesy and girl next door. Or more like me, a mature woman who knows what she wants? Or are you like most boys your age and anything on two legs will do ya?" Caitlyn said with a smile. She reminded him a bit of Willow when he was younger, all blushy and awkward talking about girls and boys he liked. He sure grew out of that.
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Post by Remus Lupin on Jan 4, 2019 5:08:53 GMT
[googlefont="Playfair Display"][googlefont="Alice"] Will you still love me when I'm no longer young and beautiful? For a moment he was reminded of his friend. Sirius was always like that. Instead of hurting someone, he was more worried about them hurting him. And he was sure she felt the same as well. It was better, really, like that. No pain, all pleasure. But Remus couldn’t help but wonder if that felt empty. A life without someone you could depend on, someone to love more than anything, one person you can share that pleasure with. He smiled a bit and nodded. Remus wasn’t a daft person – he was pretty sure from the way she was talking that her husband had passed away – or something worse. Dementors got to him. Tortured to insanity. Something like that. Either way, he wasn’t around anymore. “… I suppose you’re right. I’ve… gotten used to people telling me no one will ever love me – and – and things like that. Or well, when I say people, I mean my father. My friends tell me all the time I’m almost getting down on myself, but… it’s hard not to when at home that’s all you ever hear.” Plus, she was older from the way she looked, and she had more experience than he did with these sorts of things. But she also didn’t know what was wrong with him. If she did… she wouldn’t be saying these sorts of things, he was sure. “O-O-Oh, w-w-well…” He quickly looked at his hands and twiddled his thumbs. “Doesn’t uh… have to be a woman…” He said that part in almost a whisper and then a bit louder, and quite quickly afterwards, as if hoping she wouldn’t comment on that part he added, “Someone strong and unique and kind… and feisty. Someone who would slap me if I ever try to get too… down on myself. Someone who will be with me even when I’m down, someone I can talk to about my feelings and not look at me like I’m some sort of loon.”
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Post by Caitlyn Fey on Jan 7, 2019 2:02:08 GMT
Ah. That explained a lot. He reminded her a bit of herself, or some version of herself. That didn't have the Fisher King to help her along. She wondered where she would be without him.
Probably sitting sad on a bench in the middle of London.
"My mother...she was a lot like your father was. She had such plans for me. But she didn't care for me as a person. Only how I would advance House Fey. She would manipulate me and hurt me in a lot of different ways. But I was lucky. Because my Uncle Nick was there to step in and save me. He taught me not to care about what others thought of me. You can't wait for someone else to give you happiness. You have to find it in yourself." Caitlyn said. Of course the Fisher King had taught her much more then that. But she didn't need to tell him about his lessons on manipulation and social climbing. That would muddy the issue.
She smiled when she heard about the "doesn't have to be a woman" part.
"Of course. I understand. I would've liked to be more general but boys your age tend to be...in any case I know. Both myself and my son are pretty...open minded to all sorts of relationships. And I feel like you diagnosed exactly who you would need in a relationship. If your into it, I could find someone to give you a little...experience in relationships. It could be casual, simple. A way to ease yourself in. That way you can be more confident for...anything else that may come along. Again, I don't want to pressure you. Just letting you know the offer is there." Caitlyn said.
That was the signal that she would begin transitioning away from relationship talk. Food should be arriving soon after all. Maybe she could get the boy to lighten up a bit and flirt. Probably not though. In that case maybe...she could have the waitress for dessert.
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Post by Remus Lupin on Jan 9, 2019 4:37:52 GMT
[googlefont="Playfair Display"][googlefont="Alice"] Will you still love me when I'm no longer young and beautiful? Remus shook his head. “You were lucky to have your uncle. The only other family I have is my sister, and she doesn’t want anything to do with me.” He sighed and looked down at the table tapping it lightly. “I don’t think I could ever be happy with myself. I don’t matter. How would I ever be happy with someone who doesn’t matter? Someone who is an idiot. Someone who is dangerous and hurts those around him. Someone… who doesn’t deserve to be alive.” Boy. He was really getting onto the ‘repeating your father’s words’ train with that. But it was honestly one of his worst flaws – the fact that he really did not think of himself as anything good. Even with all the good and happiness he might bring his friends. Remus coughed and looked to the side. “Ah ha… well, I mean, I don’t mind… casual things, I just… I don’t want to curse myself onto someone. I don’t want to be someone’s regret.” That was honestly his biggest fear when it came to being with anyone. He didn’t want someone to look back and regret being with him – even when they found out what he was. That meant he really couldn’t be with anyone – who wouldn’t regret being with a werewolf?
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Post by Caitlyn Fey on Jan 10, 2019 9:52:43 GMT
Caitlyn sighed. Self-hatred wasn't a good look on anybody. She should know.
"I know that's what you think you should feel. That it has been beaten into your head so hard you find it difficult to think anything else. Cast all that off. Easier said than done, I know, but you can't hate yourself. It doesn't do anybody any good. You think you are protecting your friends with these self-loathing thoughts, but your not. It is that self-hatred that is more likely to cause them to hurt than anything else." Caitlyn said. She wondered if his friends even knew about the depths of his hatred.
"Why not? Trust me, everyone's been someone's regret. You know how many times some poor confused girl has woken up chattering about how she really wasn't into women and how upset her parents would be after a consensual and mutual night of passion with me? A guy as handsome as you will have many-" She stopped suddenly. Caitlyn had an idea that was so brillaint and simple she had no idea why she hadn't thought of it before.
"...hey, you know what I have the perfect person that could...help you along a little. He's quite close to me. Expert in keeping it casual and He's around your age. Maybe just a bit younger. I think you two will get along famously." Caitlyn said, getting out a piece of paper to write down Remus Lupin. Not an easy name to forget but she had to make sure to look him up at the Ministry so she knew how to set him up with Willow. Her son could use a new partner, and this poor boy needed someone with a little life to him.
"Still I hope that we can keep in touch. As long as you are keeping things casual. My...friend won't mind sharing...you know." Caitlyn said, her voice growing low and seductive.
Then the waitress arrived with the food.
"Oh look a scrumptious dish has arrived. And our food." Caitlyn said as the waitress set the plates down.
"Th-thank you. You fl-flatter me." Molly said, as her blush grew quite extreme.
"You have done such an excellent job Molly. It would be a shame if I didn't hear from you after the meal." Caitlyn said, eyeing the woman much like a wolf eyes a particularly appetizing piece of meat. Molly...didn't seem to mind.
"N-not here. I-I get o-off shift pretty soon and then...We can talk." Molly said quietly.
"I got ya." Caitlyn said with a wink as Molly walked off.
"Too bad Mr.Lupin. It seems I've won this round. But don't worry. Love is a game everyone can win. You just have to learn how to play." Caitlyn concluded.
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Post by Remus Lupin on Feb 7, 2019 0:12:30 GMT
[googlefont="Playfair Display"][googlefont="Alice"] Will you still love me when I'm no longer young and beautiful? It was much easier said than done. No matter what she said, it still rang in his head, his protestations. However, he knew he was wasting his breath by continuing to protest. However, her words did continue to ring in his head. He’d argued this before, and so the same words were starting to stick in his head, even if the protests were screaming over it. Maybe one day he would believe he was worth something. “Now,” Remus began evenly, trying not to offend her with his tone, as he knew he could say things people didn’t like – especially if he vehemently disagreed with them. “That isn’t right. To be just fine with someone regretting what they did with you. It’s selfish, to think of your own happiness versus their entire life thinking back with sour memories. Sure, some will think back fondly after the initial regret, but – it can really hurt someone. Regret. It eats away at you and you think ‘if only I had said no’.” It seems she hit a sensitive spot here. Perhaps it was because he was eaten up by regret. Remus pursed his lips and looked off to the side. “I don’t know. Maybe.” What was he saying? He was a werewolf! He didn’t deserve this, and yet he couldn’t seem to make himself say no to her. Maybe it was the insistence, maybe it was the fact he was lonely despite having his best friends around him somewhat often. “That depends on your definition of winning. I just can’t… see myself going home with a girl I just met like that.” He shakes his head. “I think not only the girl would regret it, but I would as well. It’d feel like I was using her.”
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Post by Caitlyn Fey on Feb 27, 2019 1:35:43 GMT
"That's a part of life though. Some people will make decisions they later regret, but as long as you make things clear, give them a choice...then you haven't done anything wrong. You can't walk around thinking you know what people want, making their minds up for them that they shouldn't know you. The women I slept with made a choice. They ignored the part of thier mind that said, "I can't do this, I'm straight", "My parents will kill me if they find out" or "I have a boyfriend" or whatever their concerns were and responded to what their body was telling them. When they woke up, satisfied of their urges, that part of their mind sprung back. Thing about regret is, you don't know what you'll regret doing and what you'll regret not doing until it's long over." She took a thoughtful sip of her drink after this.'
"You know when I was young I seduced a woman around my age. We slept together and afterward, she ran out of bed crying. Barely managed to put her clothes on. I felt awful, thinking it was something I'd done. Debated, as you might, If I had done the right thing. Later though, I ran into her. She was smiling and happy, came up to me and sincerely thanked me. Said she was about to become a nun before I slept with her. And that by doing so I helped her come to the realization it wasn't the right life for her. But it was painful to learn. That's why she ran out crying. It's really painful to grow sometimes Remus. But you really ought to try." Caitlyn looked him straight in the eyes during this.
"Fair enough. We all have things we're comfortable with and things we aren't. I like one night stands and open relationships and I hate monogamy. Feels like a lie. Pretending we aren't interested in other people. Pretending we can fully satisfy one another. I find one night stands a lot more honest then all that. Point is Mr. Lupin, lots of people have lots of different perspectives. As long as you give yours thought and it feels right to you, then you'll be walking down the right path." Caitlyn said, finishing her drink.
"Now Mr.Lupin, you just have to consider my offer. Don't worry, I'll be in touch. I have my ways. Now if you'll excuse me. I have another "regret" I'd like to make." Caitlyn said, her trademark smile inching it's way across her face.
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Post by Remus Lupin on Feb 27, 2019 6:27:42 GMT
[googlefont="Playfair Display"][googlefont="Alice"] Will you still love me when I'm no longer young and beautiful? This was something they were going to disagree on. He was sure he would never change her mind, but he couldn’t help but think that there was something she wasn’t thinking of – then again, how dare he judge her? She could know plenty he didn’t know. Just because in one instance it turned out well… didn’t mean that it would always be that way. In fact, the benefits he could see were very, very minimal. He shook his head and sighed, he was trying not to be so judgmental. When one was friends with the types of people that he was friends with that was difficult. Slytherin? Evil. Hufflepuff? Dumb. Ravenclaw? Lame. Of course, he did his best not to follow that sort of thinking, but it was hard when it was everything you heard. Perhaps that was why so many of these pureblood families had death eaters in them – because they grew up hearing all that stuff, and even if they might not believe it, its hard to think any other way. “In my, oh so humble opinion, and I hope you don’t mind me expressing it here, I think that is highly irresponsible. Personally, I would never do such a thing, but it is your choice – and it was their choice as well. However, there are plenty of ways you could have helped her realize that wasn’t the life for her. What about the people you slept with that could have killed themselves over the fact that they slept with someone? Or the ones who fell into bad habits. Yes, its their choices but… morally, at least for me, I would consider the benefits to be far less than the dangers of such a thing. Especially in these times where anyone walking down the street could be a… killer and kill you. Or where parents run rampant and are allowed to abuse their children because they are in pureblood families. I have a friend who, if he were still at his house, I’m sure he would have been murdered by his own mother for anything remotely like that.”He closed his eyes and leaned back. “I do understand everyone has different perspectives, and right now, the two of us will likely not budge on this subject of what is ‘right’ for us. I hope you know I do not think less of you because of your view not meshing with my own. To me monogamy is a way of showing loyalty. One should never lie and say they don’t desire another – it is human nature to be able to admire another. But it is also a virtue to be able to resist one’s urges depending on which ones. If it weren’t for things we’ve invented and come up with… sleeping around would be highly dangerous, could end up with too many children in the world, diseases running rampant… Even now we cannot protect from everything. Nothing is a hundred percent preventable in this world.” And boy that one struck home for him. Him with a disease who knew could spread if there was a child created between him and another. Who knew if such actions would… change someone forever? Mark them forever as cursed. No, he would never wish his curse upon another. And he wouldn’t risk giving his curse to another. Never ever. No one should ever have to go through what he did. “I do hope you enjoy yourself. I’m actually fairly easy to find. You can give credit to my friends for that.” He chuckles and stands up. “I appreciate your treating of me tonight. I will have to repay you sometime. It was a good chat.”
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Post by Caitlyn Fey on Mar 8, 2019 5:31:38 GMT
The world was filled with interesting people. That was something Caitlyn Fey firmly believed. And this one...was indeed fascinating. She disagreed with him utterly. His worldview was so filled with fear. He was going to hurt a lot. Feel a lot of senseless guilt and regret. And that made Caitlyn...sad.
"We are...very far apart on a host of issues. All I can really say is...I hope you don't spend your whole life cowering. It's a sad way to live. Scared to even touch someone because your afraid they might break. People aren't as fragile as you might think. I was a sad little bird with a broken wing too. In order to recover, someone had to set it. And that was painful. So someone had to kiss it better too. Ya know? I hope that made the slightest bit of sense. What I'm trying to get at is that you can't sit on the sidelines and pout forever. Your going to have to look at yourself, and then...well your going to have to celebrate your progress. That's how people get better, roughly." She said.
"Loyalty...it's a funny thing. With...the father of my child. With my husband. I could go all over the world, do all sorts of exciting people and fall into bed with just about anybody and tell him all about it when I got home. He would smile and tell me how beautiful I was to him, and how he loved me and how happy he was to have me as his wife. Sometimes on his trips he would fall into someone's bed too. For the first couple of years he apologized profusely when it happened even though we both agreed each other could do it....I was so proud the first time he could call me and tell me the story of his encounter without a thread of guilt."
"We were there for each other whenever we needed each other. We loved and supported each other no matter what happened, and we raised our son as best we could. I thought...all that was pretty loyal. Loyalty...it doesn't mean you have to love one person or confine yourself to physical relations with one person. That's just the animal brain telling us the genetics of our child matters. What's really important is love, support, a commitment of time and energy, communication, things like that." Caitlyn said.
"But your right. What's good for me isn't necessarily good for you. I just hope...you can be happy. And I'm glad you've tried not to judge me. Good evening." Caitlyn said and met the eyes of a waitress that was just getting off her shift. She glided over to her and put an arm around her hip, leading her out into the streets of London.
She certainly didn't regret meeting Mr. Lupin. Not that night anyway.
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