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Post by Rose Romola Lupin on Dec 27, 2018 17:48:43 GMT
[googlefont=Dancing Script] Soon comes the cold, and the night that never ends.
While they were in school.
Fuck.
Why couldn't she have been more attentive to her classmates? Why did she have to retreat into her shell? She was learning so much about the people that had been around her....
Her hand was on his back, rubbing it soothingly, up and down, looking at the gravestone, her mouth twisted into a frown.
"You're not a monster, Severus."
She spoke finally, after digesting the information.
"A monster, a tool, incapable of feeling anything but that anger and hate... that which you call yourself... would not have shown the kindness you have or the compassion."
She touched his cheek. "Look at me."
When he did, she leaned in to press a soft kiss to his lips.
"You're not that man at all. You're not anything like your father. You're lost, afraid and lonely. You want to desperately to be loved, and I get it. You know I understand that more than anyone. Come here."
She gathers him in her arms and pulls him towards her, resting his head near her shoulder.
"Love is a wide encompassing thing. Has more uses than just the one. Wolves run in packs of many. I have the ability to love and care for anyone I see fit to do so."
She pressed a kiss to his hair. "You're not stealing anyone. You're part of my pack, and Regulus, as you said, is your best friend... He is my Alpha... in a way. He will understand my intentions."
She smiled at him, "you're not alone, Severus, I intend to see to that you're not."
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Dec 27, 2018 18:28:08 GMT
Post by Severus Snape on Dec 27, 2018 18:28:08 GMT
[googlefont=Montserrat:700,700i|Open+Sans:400,400i,700] [attr="class","angelonfire"] [attr="class","aofSidebar"] [attr="class","aofBody"] He looked at her hearing what she was saying, but he quickly wiped his eyes and looked away after she was done pulling away from her quickly, back towards the ground, arms around the back of his head pulling it down. He couldn’t seem to control his emotions right now, despite being very good at it normally.
“I am alone. I’ll always be alone. I’m too late. I’m always too late. I couldn’t save her, I couldn’t – I couldn’t be what you deserve. I know Regulus can,” He swallowed, his voice hoarse like he was losing his voice. His throat hurt, tensed up just like the rest of his body and he just sucked in shaky breaths, trying not to make any sounds while he cried, the emotions completely overwhelming him.
“I don’t know how you work, but I don’t know if Regulus works that way too. I just – I just know that our relationship as it is, or even how it can be, won’t be symbiotic if you can just go to him. Then I’m just taking advantage of you. I can’t do that.” He reached finally looking up his eyes puffy and red, tears still streaming down his face. It wasn’t crying like one would see on that muggle television or in movies or anything. It was ugly crying, his nose running and everything. He just looked like a complete wreck. “I can’t do that to you, I can’t do that to him. I’m just… doomed to lose anyone I care about. This is my fault for not contacting you during those weeks. I wanted to, so badly, Rose. I couldn’t. But what I’m feeling? It just kept growing every time I thought about you.”
He swallowed and shook his head. “I don’t know how any of this works, Rose. What even is the ‘alpha’? Does it mean he always comes first? I – I don’t think I could do anything like that, knowing I would always be second best. That’s why I made those rules for us, because I didn’t want you to feel that way because of my feelings for Lily, but that’s…” He sucked in a breath, putting a hand up to his throat because of the pain he was feeling from the crying and sobbing. “I’m meant to die alone. I just – I need to go. I need to be alone. I only have one reason to live and that’s to make this world a better place for you and him. So, you can be happy together. That’s it. I wish it was different. But that’s how it is. After that, you’ll never hear from me again, and you can be happy without any of this… complicated stupid mess. I don’t know how I feel. You should be with someone who understands how they feel and can promise you more than I can.” He quickly stands up and starts trying to walk away again.
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Post by Rose Romola Lupin on Dec 28, 2018 1:14:53 GMT
[googlefont=Dancing Script] Soon comes the cold, and the night that never ends.
It hurt to see him like this. She felt like she betrayed him. Why did it hurt so much?
He was terribly upset and this bothered her more than anything. Lost. Confused. Hurting.
She just wanted to take it away. Make it go away.
She didn't care if there were feelings involved. She didn't care he wasn't sure what those feelings were.
They needed to come to a mutual agreement.
But first...
"Alone is the last thing you need right now, Severus. You're grieving. I... I don't want you getting hurt."
She reached for his wrist again, gripping it gently this time.
She looked up at him, concern in her eyes. "I told you, I won't let you burn bridges with me. I care for you too much for that."
She inhaled. "Come with me, please? Let me take you to my den. Where you can be safe. Please."
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Dec 28, 2018 19:25:54 GMT
Post by Severus Snape on Dec 28, 2018 19:25:54 GMT
[googlefont=Montserrat:700,700i|Open+Sans:400,400i,700] [attr="class","angelonfire"] [attr="class","aofSidebar"] [attr="class","aofBody"] Her den? Right. If it weren’t Regulus he would be wondering what the guy was forcing her to do for all these perks. If the guy was using her, paying her essentially for comfort. He clenched his fist. Then again he barely knew Rose. Sure the went to school together and were friends but would she use someone so she could have all these things? Either way he couldn’t see how it would be healthy - completely supported by him. Afraid to end it or lose the flat and everything. He wondered if anything like that was going on and it worried him. He wanted both of them to have a happy relationship, and he had no idea if they had one. Regulus hadn’t told him about her at all. And he was positive his parents wouldn’t allow it and so he was stealing from his parents essentially. There was so much wrong going on and he didn’t know what to do about it.
”I’m not going to your ‘den’.” His voice was softer than before, not hoarse but a tiny bit rough. It was more a bit concerned. ”I don’t want you to be dependent on anyone and from what I can see he’s controlling you. And that’s not healthy. It’s either that or you’re controlling him, and I don’t know what to think of it. You barely know him Rose. And he’s younger than you, not fully matured, neither am I. Yet after three weeks he’s bought you a flat. How do you know after this instant attraction is gone, after limerence is finished you’ll still feel like this. You shouldn’t rush into things like this. Three weeks Rose.”. He shook his head and sighed.
He finally turned back towards her fully, his eyes glancing to his mother’s grave. ”My mother told me stories about how she fell in love with my dad. I don’t know everything about your relationship but I do know rushing into one is exactly what causes unhappy marriages and abusive relationships to come about. I love Regulus, but I also know everyone has the capacity to become abusive and cruel if they’re given the chance.” Even me. He felt like a jerk for saying this - but he felt she needed to hear because he had learned from experience with his parents, he learned from his mom. Tobias Snape apparently was a wonderful man once upon a time. His mother was happy with him, flying and in love for awhile. But then it went downhill quickly.
”Don’t do anything you don’t want to do, Rose. And even if you want to, you should think hard about it. You need to talk to him about everything. About your feelings, about what you want for your future. About your limits. About what is too far and what isn’t. About me. About everything. Sit down and talk about all these things before you do something you may regret. Before you do something you wouldn’t do with a stranger. I know he isn’t one... but it’s just an analogy. Would you accept a flat from a random person walking down the road? Would you marry a random person? Have kids? Move in together? Do you know if he would pick you over his family? Would he be willing to be disowned like his brother for you? You need to know these things.” [attr="class","aofCredit"] SELKIE
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Post by Rose Romola Lupin on Dec 28, 2018 23:42:20 GMT
[googlefont=Dancing Script] Soon comes the cold, and the night that never ends.
She cringed at his words, her brows furrowing at his worried tone.
Regulus? Controlling her?
Wait, no. No, no. Well, yes, but, no.
"He hasn't done anything I haven't asked him to do."
As she said the words, his outburst from a few days ago reared its head.
"Keep you put? You'd better not go anywhere! You're mine! You gave me control, I gave you a home. You gave me your desires, I gave you a reason for hope! You gave me your love I took your choices and became the Alpha you needed! You ain't going anywhere!
YOU CAN NOT MAKE ME FALL IN LOVE AND THEN WALK AWAY!
We WILL make this work! One year and you will go nowhere, Rose! I have already committed myself, stealing from my father to feed your desire for a den! I have been working on stuff to keep you safe, help you hurt less and have more control!"
Her brows furrowed in thought.
"I trust him. I... I know what it looks like. And you're right, he is young. He doesn't see it like that."
She wants to say 'I can walk away at any time', but the words stick in her throat and she looks up at Severus a long moment.
"Yes, we'll have a chat. Give me a time and a place that's good for you. Preferably muggle. My brother has been sniffing around for me so I can't appear anywhere normally in the wizarding part of London."
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Post by Severus Snape on Dec 29, 2018 2:49:55 GMT
[googlefont=Montserrat:700,700i|Open+Sans:400,400i,700] [attr="class","angelonfire"] [attr="class","aofSidebar"] [attr="class","aofBody"] “Are you sure about that?” He said this seeing her brow furrow. Just looking at her, it looked a lot like she just didn’t want to say it. That there was something she was thinking of right now that was a problem. He pursed his lips and shook his head. Maybe he should talk to Dumbledore about that job he offered him. He sucked in a breath. “You can live here. At my place. If you need. If he ever scares you or need a place where he can’t find you because you need space… I won’t be living here for much longer.”
He looked away for a moment. Just like that he had decided on it – provided the job was still open. Seems his little stunt in Hogsmeade made Dumbledore think he could be ‘trusted’. Swallowing he looked around. “There’s a little café in town, the people there know me. This whole place is swarming with muggles, and they’ll give us the backroom, the one for private parties if I ask. Just as long as I ask for it beforehand. We won’t be interrupted, unless we ask for them to bring us food. No one can hear, and we can put up wards if need be.”
He pursed his lips and took her hand, kissing the back of it. “I will not compete for you, if he’s against it. Unless you wish to pick me over him – which I would not suggest you do. I don’t know how I feel. I don’t know what I could give you in the future. Nor would I want to take you from him. Either way, I don’t want to make him uncomfortable or anything like that.”
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Post by Rose Romola Lupin on Dec 29, 2018 5:27:08 GMT
[googlefont=Dancing Script] Soon comes the cold, and the night that never ends.
She didn't answer.
No, she wasn't sure. What had she done in her desperation?
No, she couldn't think like that. He... he was just new, learning, she wasn't trapped.
She gave him a look. Live here? If she needed spa--
"Not living here much longer? Wh--where are you going?"
She blinked, looking up at him with wide eyes. She nods. That sounded good as place as any. "I'll set that up then. N-Next week? Saturday?"
Her mind was whirling with thoughts. Doubts. She hated being in doubt. But she also hadn't lied either, her words held truth to Reg. But now what was she going to do?
But the swirl of thoughts stopped with the simple touch of his lips to the back of her hand. She gripped his hand in return, looking up at him.
"I don't know what my future holds either."
She took in a shuddering breath and used the hand she gripped to quickly pull him into a hug, her arms going around his neck and her face burying into his shoulder.
Was it possible that she had gotten herself into a more dangerous situation than she thought?
She clung tightly to him. Her voice a barely audible whisper against his neck.
She had given him all the tool to subdue her, to have her submit...
"What have I done?"
She was afraid.
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Post by Severus Snape on Dec 29, 2018 5:34:55 GMT
[googlefont=Montserrat:700,700i|Open+Sans:400,400i,700] [attr="class","angelonfire"] [attr="class","aofSidebar"] [attr="class","aofBody"] Severus quickly pulled her into a hug, his head nestling into her neck and pressing a quick kiss to the skin there. “My future holds a teaching position at Hogwarts. Dumbledore offered it to me. Slughorn wants to retire in the next couple years and Dumbledore wishes that I train under him until that time.” His hand ran down her back and let out a small sigh. This was all so confusing but at least this would provide her a place that could be away if she needed – if she felt trapped, she had a place to go. If things got too much she could retreat. And all it took was a job that the Dark Lord already wanted him to take.
“Your future will hold whatever you want, Rose. If you want to stick with Regulus, then that is what it will be, but don’t stand for anything you don’t want. Stand up and be strong. I know you can do it,” Severus said softly running a hand through her hair, the silky dark locks running through his fingers. He was worried. He was scared. But that didn’t mean he would shy away. Regulus was his best friend. He also wanted the best for him. And he didn’t want him to turn into someone who was like his father – everyone was capable of that. Severus wasn’t one to trust anyone, even his closet friends – because of Lily.
“It’s going to be alright. I – I just… I know a good relationship shouldn’t start with one person having all the power. That’s why teacher-student relationships are bound to fail. That’s why boss and employee relationships are bound to fail – and both are illegal. Things need to balance out in order to become healthy. Control and having fun with… play comes later. You have to learn about each other and live together without that first. He may be your alpha, but things change. You wouldn’t want him to become power drunk and change into something he isn’t, would you?”
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Post by Rose Romola Lupin on Dec 29, 2018 6:12:44 GMT
[googlefont=Dancing Script] Soon comes the cold, and the night that never ends.
Her eyes lit up. Hogwarts?!
"W-well, Hogsmeade would be better then, right? We could see each other more often!"
He was going to take over Slughorn? That meant...
"Potions?" Duh! Of course. She gave him a grin. She was excited for him. Glad that... that he wasn't exactly going the way of the Death Eaters.
Little did she know.
"I'm so happy for you! I know teaching dunderheaded children the fine art that is potions is probably not at the top of your list, but..."
Still, she smiles she hugs him tighter. Lips to his neck.
"Thanks, Severus... I... appreciate your strength. I'll... I'll do that. I know I can too. I got this far, right?"
She suppressed the light shiver and chills sent down her spine by the movement of his hand in her hair.
"Thank you... thank you for opening my eyes to this. I... I think I was on cloud nine and... forgot about reality."
She pulled away from him slightly to quirk a smile. "What would I do without you in my life, hm?"
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Post by Severus Snape on Dec 29, 2018 6:27:29 GMT
[googlefont=Montserrat:700,700i|Open+Sans:400,400i,700] [attr="class","angelonfire"] [attr="class","aofSidebar"] [attr="class","aofBody"] “We could see each other more often.” He gave her a small smile. “Plus, I won’t have to watch my finances as closely. If something happens – or if you want something with no strings attached, I’m here. You don’t have to worry about making me happy or leaving me, or always loving me. Well, I might say no depending, but I don’t really know what to do with money other than occasionally drink and with the job… well getting drunk would be no good.” He had to be responsible. At least she had the common sense to figure out what he was talking about. Potions. Obviously. It was his best subject and he got a perfect grade on his OWLs and NEWTs. To the point everyone who graded his test thought he cheated and had him retake it once with everyone watching him.
“I could sign this place over. I never really liked it anyways, lots of bad memories, if you wanted to be sure there were no string attached, however, much like I just lectured you – it probably is too soon. But even still, if I were to give up all legal rights, I’d have nothing to hold against you. Regardless… maybe in the future.” He waved it off, having lost the right words and therefore there was no reason for him to continue fumbling around. Just get out the gist of what he was trying to say and end it as soon as he realized he was rambling.
“Why don’t we go have dinner together? Just as friends. Talk and get to know each other. Our hobbies, our lives, our passions.”
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Post by Rose Romola Lupin on Dec 29, 2018 6:50:45 GMT
[googlefont=Dancing Script] Soon comes the cold, and the night that never ends.
Yes, she was happy that she'd be able to see him more often. Insanely happy, really.
His offer, however, sidetracked her, but she did not argue against it.
"We could always drink together?" she grins, teasingly. "I won't let you get drunk drunk, just fun."
She laughs. "Oh, Severus," she says with a wave of her hand. "I'd love you even if you hard your wand to my throat."
She shakes her head, "but making you happy? Well, I'd strive for that anyway. Even if this is to remain platonic."
She rolled her eyes. "Keep that thought in mind, but not so quick."
She rose a brow then, swallowing thickly. "Why, I'd love that."
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Post by Severus Snape on Dec 29, 2018 6:58:32 GMT
[googlefont=Montserrat:700,700i|Open+Sans:400,400i,700] [attr="class","angelonfire"] [attr="class","aofSidebar"] [attr="class","aofBody"] He smiled. Ah ha, so she was learning. Not too quick. But it was okay to fall in love and feel strongly – just not get too far into things. Deeper you went the harder it would be to get out. And well… sometimes you might want to get out of it given perhaps you don’t click perfectly together in the future.
“Ah well, that sounds alright. As long as I’m responsible. No need to apparate when I’m drunk anymore, my place will just be a walk away at the castle. Maybe I’ll get the dungeon room – Slughorn, last I heard, wasn’t using the usual potions office. He prefers the bigger one upstairs.” He chuckled. While he wasn’t really looking forward to teaching – it was his job and it was what the Dark Lord wanted of him. Originally, he was going to refuse – and had refused but went back after the Dark Lord told him to try to get the job. Even still, it would be a good place to work as a spy and recruiter.
He gave her a small smile and shook his head. “Honestly, I hope this doesn’t have to stay platonic. I think I’ve fallen in love with you too.” He gives her a small smile and looks down for a moment. “Perhaps that’s why I’m so worried… and perhaps I’m a bit jealous.” He chuckles lightly and places a hand on her cheek, his thumb moving along her cheek slowly.
“Let’s go then. There’s this amazing muggle restaurant not far from here, it serves Italian food, and I’ve never tasted better – other than what the elves cook at Hogwarts.” /div] [attr="class","aofCredit"] SELKIE
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Post by Rose Romola Lupin on Dec 29, 2018 7:18:55 GMT
[googlefont=Dancing Script] Soon comes the cold, and the night that never ends.
"And out of the drafty dungeons?" She laughs. "I would too!"
He was smiling and her stomach was doing all sorts of nonsense things like flipflopping and stuff. She felt slightly light-headed.
She was a mess. That smile was killing her, but she wanted to keep it there. Wanted to be the one that kept it there. She was about to reach to touch his cheek before he let the bomb of the afternoon drop.
"W-what?" He was? In love with her? Not three weeks ago he'd said -- wow. Just... wow. His hand was on her cheek and she leaned into the warmth of his hand instinctively. She lifts a hand to his on her cheek, squeezing it affectionately.
"Okay. Let's go. Good meal, good company. What more could a girl ask for?"
Maybe a little too much to drink.
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Post by Severus Snape on Dec 29, 2018 7:27:48 GMT
[googlefont=Montserrat:700,700i|Open+Sans:400,400i,700] [attr="class","angelonfire"] [attr="class","aofSidebar"] [attr="class","aofBody"] “I actually quite prefer the dungeons. Not many people around because most people dislike them, plus its dark, and I much prefer the dark.” As was obvious from his very pale face and body. Sun just melted him like he was some sort of vampire. Too much sun and he burned badly – that was more realistic than him actually melting. He just preferred not to be burned all over.
He swallowed and nodded when she, unsurprisingly, was a bit confused when he said what he said. “I’m not sure, but I think its love, what I feel for you. It’s very similar to what I feel for Lily. But different as well. I miss you when you’re not around. It crushes my heart when you’re afraid or in pain. The last three weeks, I slowly realized these feelings had manifested. To be perfectly honest, I’ve always… wanted to be your friend but I was too… shy. I’ve watched you while we were in school, and I’ve been incredibly impressed. It’s not too far fetched for me to fall for someone I’ve admired from afar for so long. Especially given how close these feelings I feel for you are to the feelings I feel for Lily. It’s hard to describe.”
He remembered seeing her sorted in their first year. When she went to Slytherin and her brother to Gryffindor. He felt for her – she probably felt the same he did when he heard Lily going to Gryffindor. He felt for her. He felt a sense of comradery, but he never approached her really. They were just classmates. But he watched her while she was in the common room, reading or doing something else. Why else would he have been so eager to sleep with her that day three weeks ago? He had already felt the attraction, and had wanted her for ages, but also at the same time lacked the bravery needed – as well as either distracted by or reeling because of Lily.
“It’s just around the corner here.” He takes her hand and starts down the road.
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Post by Rose Romola Lupin on Dec 29, 2018 7:45:11 GMT
[googlefont=Dancing Script] Soon comes the cold, and the night that never ends.
She chuckled, bringing her fingertips to his cheek. "I can tell. It works for you. Not so much Slughorn. "You'll become the bat of the dungeon I think."
She grinned at him, she was joking, of course. Finding it terribly easy to be so at ease around him.
Her already wide eye rounded more as he explained, and her gaping mouth closed, only to pull her bottom lip in between her teeth. He watched her. Had watched her. Once again, she had just been concerned with herself. She shook her head.
"Shy. Severus Snape, you are not shy. Not anymore at least."
What she would give just to share the bed with him again. She grins at him, poking his nose. "I can't believe it. I charmed Severus Snape!"
She shook her head with a laugh, threading her fingers with his as she allowed hi to lead the way. Still giggling.
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